Wednesday, February 3, 2010

I am still here

I know I have not been on here lately, but I wanted to let you know that I am still kicking. I have been really grandmother passed away on January 15th and it all went down hill from there. I know she was a Christian so I know she is in a better place, but she was the only grandparent I had left so it is still kind of hard to deal with. That and the fact that since I never had many grandparents as a child because they all died way too soon, I try really hard to have my children's grandparents a part of their lives. But my father in law will not have anything to do with them anymore. He got re-married (the same day that his divorce was final), and we got into an argument in 2008 right after Christmas. Since that day he has contacted his son (my husband) only once or twice, made promises to get the kids, but has not made any effort to see them at all. For a while there my son blamed me but I reminded him that I encouraged him to use my cell phone and call his grand dad, and I also took both of my kids to see him at work one day. He doesn't have to like me or talk to me, but these are his grand kids and he doesn't seem to care at all. He has his new wife and her children and that seems to be all he cares about. When my grand mother passed, this has bothered me more and more. But I don't' know what else to do.
I apologize for this post, I guess I needed to vent! For all you praying bloggers out there, please pray for my FIL. He is not a christian man and has always criticised me, and I know that is a big part of his problem. I pray for his salvation and that he will realize that he is missing the best years of the lives of his grand children!